This is going to be a long ass rant. Really did some soul-searching.

Back when I was in high school, I was labeled “conceited,” a “bitch,” or even a “whore,” even though people didn’t really know me. (How could I be a whore when I didn’t really have any boyfriends? Go figure.) Being young and naive, my reputation was my life and I didn’t think there was anything worse than having a bad rep. I tried so hard to be nauseatingly sweet to everyone and in my whole entire life, I went out of my way to please people so they would like me and know that I’m not as mean as I look. Now that I’m all grown up (well sorta) and have a stronger mind, I rarely hear those negative terms that used to make my life a living hell. (Whew.)

But I’m afraid all those years of trying to be sweet and nice has gotten me in even more trouble. I transformed and became something that was even worse than appearing like a “bitch.” I became a doormat.

It took me a long time to realize why I was always stuck in such awkward situations or why my life literally seems like a constant drama series. I’ve been wondering why all these bad things happen and after asking around, some people would tell me it’s because I interpret them as bad things and I totally agree with that. But you know what else? When you’re too nice…people literally will step all over you. I know it sounds commonsensical and obvious but you would think that when you’re nice, you can inspire people and you can make a difference. You can change perceptions and motivate peace.

Wrong, so awfully wrong. Sure there are a good handful of people that will appreciate you for being nice and treat you the way you treat them. But I was not aware of how many bad people there are in the world. Bad people who not only will hate you for being too nice but who will also try to use your niceness to their advantage. I’ve always watched movies where the nice guys persevere and overcome dumb mean people but in reality, that doesn’t always happen. Sadly, I think it’s just to give the good guys hope.

Then I started wondering how I became so nice in the first place…maybe it’s from years of watching goody-goody shows like “Family Matters,” or “Full House,” where the people are unrealistically nice and everyone seems to overcome issues by “talking it out.” Maybe I pictured the world to be like that when I was younger and expected I would walk into my first day of school with everyone waving and saying hi to me. But the world is definitely not like that. Far from it.

I guess I just noticed all of this working in a prominently female workplace. You learn a lot when you’re caged in together with members of your species. I learned about all types of females. I actually learned a lot about myself in the process. I learned that there aren’t people as “good” and “nice” as you. (I put that in quotes because it’s very subjective.) I also learned that if you want to be as happy as possible, you have to cut out the people and the things in your life that give you even a little bit of grief. Because it’s not healthy to do that to yourself. And you have to do so in a way without feeling sorry for what you did. You can’t feel sorry for the things that are harmful to you.

I have learned what it is to make yourself happy and trust me, it is hard. It’s not an easy thing to do. You can still be nice and optimistic but you have to be smart about it and careful. I’ve learned to read people quite well after a few times of meeting them, but sometimes people can still surprise you. So I will still try to continue believing in those traditional movies and t.v. shows and prove that yes, nice gals can finish first. As long as you make yourself happy, then why do you care about others? It only makes them miserable in the end if you don’t care too much.

Well I’m out for the day…sorry about the long depressing post.

Wait a minute, you know what? I’m NOT sorry! You read it, that’s on you!

xoxo Hunni

In case you didn’t know, I’m a huge dog fan. (Sorry to cats but no thank you)

I’ve always wanted my own dogs but realistically, it wouldn’t be fair since I have such a demanding schedule. Same with having kids, I’d prefer to live my life, be free-spirited and do anything I want without anything or anyone holding me back. I just want to be independent and selfish right now…i’m still young right?

And plus I’m honestly thinking about the dog. If I had a dog, I’d want him or her to live an incredibly exciting life and I can’t provide that right now.

I’m fine with not having a dog since my sister has 2 cute ass yorkshire terriers and my boyfriend has a yorkie and a maltese.

Here are my sister’s yorkies: Prince & Coco

Me, Prince (left), Coco (Right)

About Prince: He’s really shy and is bored easily. He cries all the time day and night until you play with him or take him on a walk. He loves messing around but if you accidentally scare him, he’ll run away and hide from you. He is a bit of a hassle to take care of because the only time he’s quiet is when you massage him, but as soon as you stop, he starts whining again. Who has time to freakin massage 24/7?!

About Coco: She is one of a kind; I have never seen a dog as smart as her. I swear she understands English! Sometimes we’ll just point to an area and she’ll go straight to it! Or if we tell her we need privacy, she’ll leave the room. She always wrestles with Prince, and she ALWAYS wins. She’s pretty competetive. She’s the ideal dog if you have a super busy life. 
 She’s happiest when she’s sitting on your lap or sleeping beside you. And she never cries. The only time she gets up is if she has to go to the bathroom and she’ll lead you to the door.

Here are Carlo’s dogs: Rocky & Polo

About Rocky: Rocky is the Yorkie. makes the weirdest poses…he’s a little awkward. He jumps on you and let me remind you, he is an 11 pound yorkie and him jumping on you doesn’t feel too nice. He likes to intensely rub his face and neck on things. We still haven’t quite figured out what it means when he does that. Either he loves you and is showing you affection or he thinks you’re a toy and that he owns you. Hopefully it’s affection because he constantly does it to me. =/

About Polo: He is a real scaredy-cat and does NOT like meeting new people. He will run away in fright. He’s a bit annoying because he doesn’t understand the word “No.” He likes to lick you all over your face, including your eyeballs and I bet you can imagine how annoying that is considering “No!” doesn’t help one bit. He hates when Rocky stands near him and growls with a crazy look in his eyes. I guess he likes his personal space.

I love all my dogs and try to visit them at least once a week. But lately I’ve been itchin’ for a new one. I have always liked Westies…if you don’t know what that is, it’s the main dog seen in Cesar Milan’s dog food commercials? Here is a cute pic of one:

Isn’t it soooo cute? I want one so bad because I’ve heard from people they’re so smart and easy to take care of. I love Yorkies to death but I want a Westie to add into the mix. I’ll definitely consider one once I move into a new apartment. Startig next week, I’ll be apartment hunting! Hopefully I find a place fit enough for a princess. I’m not gonna settle for anything less!

What type of dog is your favorite?

xoxo Hunni

I have a bad habit of buying makeup in excess when I already have a sufficient amount. I was planning on buying just one lipstick on Sephora.com but then I accidentally broke one of my favorite makeup items.

I religiously use Anastasia’s Eyebrow Powder Duo in Brunette. Since my sister introduced me to it, I have been using it for 2 years. I was using it the other day and being the clutz I am, I dropped it and it cracked into a bunch of tiny pieces. It was kind of an excuse to shop around online so after a few hours, I decided on getting:

Eyebrow Powder = $22
Red Lipstick = $12
Lipliner = $5
Black Eyeliner = $8


= $48 

Free shipping on Sephora is $50 and up. Dammit Sephora, DAMN YOU! So obviously I’m gonna get something else instead of paying the S&H of $7. So I ended up getting some perfume atomizer which is a very useless item, I know, but I needed something cheap to push it close to $50. And I guess it’ll be easier than lugging around my huge perfume bottles. Anyway…here are all the goodies:

Plus, I got free samples of perfume, eye primer, concealer, and a few packets of spa treatments (masks, cleansers, etc.)

I just can never learn!! Online shopping is absolutely horrible! Aside from saving me gas, time, and energy, it’s the DEVIL I TELL YA! HMPH!

Anywho….DON’T THINK I FORGOT ABOUT THE REAL WORLD AUDITION! 

As soon as they interviewed me, I started shaking, stuttering, mumbling, and throwing out awkward laughs in between my sentences. OMG people must think I’m a freak! Just thinking about it is humiliating!  And then they gave me a pen to fill out a contract and I couldn’t even hold the damn pen. My hand had a mind of its own…it was trembling with fear. I swear I was staring at my hand for an intense moment and just prayed…Please ‘hand’ stop moving. Just get me through this damn contract in peace. I need you to stay calm and not embarrass me. I beg of you. As soon as we get through this, I will treat you to a mani and luxurious lotion. Just don’t ruin this for me….

Oy vey. Story of my life.

xoxo Hunni

***EDIT*** 5/8/10
MTV emailed me again and sent me a VIP pass so I can skip the line and go straight to the front!!! I’m so freaking excited!!! I hope I can WOW the producers. ***EDIT***

I wake up today. An average usual day…I don’t feel too uppity nor do I feel irritated. I brush my teeth (unlike Jessica Simpson), wash my face, and hear the phone ringing. I look at my phone to see who’s calling and I literally see:

Incoming Call:

*0707

I’m like, are you freakin serious? Who the hell can it be? So I ignore it thinking it’s a telemarketer or another wrong number from a foreign country. Then it rings again so I decide to pick it up. So happy I did. My day went from mundane to freaking awesome!

So get this: MTV calls and tells me they would like to meet me in person and do a casting call for the next Real World Episode. I was so ecstatic and told them I’ll be there of course! I applied about 9 months ago and I can’t believe they actually responded. I always thought of myself as a boring person but I finally want to do something spontaneous! Hopefully all goes well and you’ll be seeing me on tv!

I was thinking about my email. What made them want to pick me? What did they like best? Was it my pictures or my actual essay? 
I remember writing to them telling them that I want to change the way people perceive Asian Americans. I don’t know if I’ll be a good or bad role model but I definitely am going to be different from the typical Asian stereotypes. I want to give a refreshing new look!

I can’t wait to update about it! Fingers crossed!

xoxo Hunni

I was recently watching a special on TV about hoarding. This issue hasn’t really been brought to my attention before and I’ve never really known about it so I was very fascinated with the entire special. Hoarding is basically when people have problems with accumulating an excess of something.

It’s when you continue collecting and find it hard to toss even one item out, even until the items pile up. It’s definitely a disorder that can handicap your life. Some people, like Lindsay Lohan, like to shop so frequently that their entire house looks like a swap meet, and not in a good way! 

The show focuses on an elderly lady who has so much junk piled up in her house, she actually bought the house next door to fill up with more crap! Her house became too overwhelming that she couldn’t invite people over anymore and she could barely walk inside her own house. Her daughters are aware of the situation but they accept it as if it’s just a minor quirk. 

The ladies all go out together every weekend and as a bonding experience, they shop. Shop for clothes, jewelry, makeup, perfume, etc. They all love shopping with one another and it started to become an expected hobby.

One of the daughters pointed out that instead of having a hobby where they are bringing stuff in, why not have a hobby where you can bring stuff out?

It really made me think about my own personal quirks and whether I too, am a hoarder. I do love shopping and seem to like collecting a lot of things. My rooms do tend to be on the messier side not because I’m a person that is used to clutter, but more because I don’t have room to put all my stuff and excessive clothing. 

So the answer is no, I don’t think I’m a hoarder. I give all my unneeded clothes to my cousins and to people who can’t afford more clothing. I try to have garage sales online and in person, so I can get rid of as much stuff as I can. I definitely want to start a yard sale in the near future and just sell everything for like 25 cents to a dollar each item. I just want to get rid of all my clothes as fast as possible!

So I went shopping today with my roommate and I saw a little boutique that I love going to with my sisters! I tried on a few outfits and I literally wanted to buy all of them! (I’m a spontaneous shopper sometimes) But after thinking it through in the dressing room, I realized, I don’t need the clothes and as much as I love them, I don’t need them. We left the mall and I was empty-handed. I was very proud of myself and so was my roommate, knowing how much of a crazy shopper I am.

Then I started thinking about my closet and all my clothes. There are a few essential tops like the basic spaghetti strap and tank tops that you can layer or wear under any outfit. Then you have the few sweaters and jackets that go with any outfits or for any occasions. And of course,there are the outfits you can only wear once, that you will never wear again, and that you will probably have sitting in your closet ’til the end of time and before you know it, you forget all about it. Well, I’m trying to shop only for clothes that are versatile and that I can wear over and over again without worrying a button popping off or the lace ripping.

So basically, I’m going to be a smarter shopper from now on and not just a spur-of-the-moment shopper. It’s good to have only a few good clothes and just mix and match. Sometimes it’s fun with certain accessories and shoes. A hoarder is far from the kind of person I want to be. I don’t want to be an extreme consumer because in the end, your items will consume you. You need to have a moderate outlook on shopping because shopping in excess can really drive you crazy in the long run. I definitely don’t want to buy the house next door just to store my personal belongings. That’s nuts!

xoxo Hunni

Some people are scared of spiders. Some people are scared of snakes. There are even people who are scared of balloons. What’s my phobia? Heights. Well specifically…heights plus motion, which equals ROLLERCOASTERS! Yes, I have a fear of rollercoasters, as ridiculous as that sounds! I’ve been to Disneyland before when I was younger and maybe once in high school but the only rides I remember are Peter Pan and Dumbo.

Until Yesterday. I went to Disneyland and California Adventure with my sister, her boyfriend, and one of our friends and although I chickened out on Maliboomer, I was very impressed with myself because I actually rode most of the rollercoasters.Yes I know, everybody reading this blog has probably ridden every Disneyland ride and even every Six Flags ride. But for someone who has never really gone on a rollercoaster before, I think I did pretty good.

I felt like a chicken my whole life for being nervous and anxious about riding a rollercoaster. I would get more than butterflies in my stomach, it would be to the point where I was feeling sick and nauseous. I even threw up after riding a silly carnival ride. That’s how bad I was. Going to Disneyland (which is known for having kiddish rides) had me anxious the entire time.

But I actually can’t wait to go back soon! Below are my top fave rides in Disneyland and a list of rides that weren’t as magical. Some were just ehhh…and sadly a lot of my favorite childhood rides are actually my least favorite now. But luckily, I gained a bunch of new favorites! 

BEST DISNEYLAND RIDES

6.  River Run – This was in California Adventure. Water rides are always so fun but it’s best to go on a really hot day when you’re begging to get wet. Otherwise, if you hate the water, this isn’t for you.

5. Toy Story – This was in California Adventure too. This is such a fun one where you put on some 3D glasses and take a jerky ride through a maze filled with targets to shoot. There’s a small screen during the ride that updates your score and at the very end, you see who did the best. A must ride!

4. Thunder Mountain – This is such a fast, crazy train ride! I loved this one because of the speed. Definitely a popular one!

3. Matterhorn – This reminds me of Thunder Mountain except it’s on a snowy mountain and you’re sitting in a bobsled-like cart. You can ride in your own seat or you can have someone sit in between your legs while you hold them (like a motorcycle ride). It’s fast and quick and the only reason I like this one better than Thunder Mountain are the seats. You get to stretch out your legs and because you’re sitting alone, it feels like you’re navigating the mountain on your own. Pretty exciting.

2. Space Mountain – This is pretty close to being my favorite ride. The line was 1 1/2 hours long. I was wondering what the fuss was all about. I’ve asked many of my friends and 50% love it and 50% hate it. I was so curious about the ride because everyone seemed to have a crazy description that I couldn’t imagine. It’s definitely something you have to see for yourself! I love how fast and crazy this one is. Just try to avoid the bright light in the end when the camera takes your picture. It’s annoyingly bright. And warning, you WILL get very dizzy after this ride.

1. Mulholland Madness – This was in California Adventure too and it’s by far the most fun I had on a ride. A lot of people exiting the ride were talking about how much they hate it and I totally understand why. You’re sitting in a car and not only are you going at a face pace but there are a lot of crazy corners to turn and every time you turn a corner, the car inches off the track and it really feels like you’re about to fall off. I have no idea how they created that ride but they do a good job of making you feel unsecured. This one is sooo fun!

MY LEAST FAVE RIDES

I’m sorry if you don’t agree but well, everybody’s different. (This is in opposite order. The top is the worst and as you go down, the rides are better)

1. ToonTown Rollercoaster – We rode it for laughs but our laughs turned to grimaces and we were definitely not amused. The 40 minute line lead us to a 5 second ride. It was fun for a second until it ended. I understand it’s a kid’s ride so I’ll let that slide, but it’s still the worst ride.

2. Storybook Land – I don’t know if the people who made Small World made this one too because it’s a similar concept. But I just didn’t see the fun in this boring ride.

3. Haunted Mansion – Wow, I can’t believe I was so excited to ride this. I think I hyped this up because the only good part about this is the beginning when you’re stuck in the room.

4. Pirates of the Caribbean – Sorry but this ride didn’t do it for me. It was a beautiful place, but it moved way too slow.

5. Soaring – This probably shouldn’t even be on this list because I really liked it except the image was a little blurry and after we left, we all got kind of dizzy. And it was dizzy in a bad way like my eyes were fuzzy for a while. Otherwise, I love simulated rides and I really appreciated the idea. This is a favorite of a lot of people though and I think it’s worth trying. I wouldn’t knock this one.

There you have it! My top favorite rides! I feel like a whole new person and that I can do anything I want if I put my mind to it.

I really want to go again soon because 11 hours just wasn’t enough time! I still didn’t get to ride the ferris wheel and of course, Dumbo! =(

One of our friends brought her camera and snapped a bunch of pictures so once she emails me, I will put them up!

Okay so we all know the saying, “Don’t Judge A Book By It’s Cover.” Well, we’re all only human and it’s natural to judge and stereotype. I don’t live under a rock; I know it’s human nature. It’s a little different when it’s happening to you constantly. 

So if I had a dollar for every time someone has misjudged me, I would be a millionaire. 

No joke. I would say over 90% of my friends (females only) have said that my image is bitchy without it being intentional. Not my facial expression or my gestures, but literally just by my physical appearance alone.  I‘ve even had people who I’ve never met before come up to me and tell me that too. Why is it that people are so quick to judge? And how can a person’s image appear bitchy? I had a discussion with my roommate the other day about this. We were trying to figure it out…

Could it be the way I put on my makeup? The fact that I’m Asian and have blondish highlights in my hair? The fact that I’m not afraid to show some skin? Or maybe it’s because I just don’t have a friendly face when I’m not smiling? 

Well who the hell goes around with a forced grin on their face anyways? That’s a little creepy if you ask me. 

I have experienced girl drama like you wouldn’t believe and what’s even worse is I know girls who have rarely experienced drama. But then a guy friend tells me:  Some girls just have that image that people associate with snobs. It could be a certain style they’re sporting or a certain overall image they possess. Well whatever…I dress the way I want to dress and I put however much makeup I want to put and you know something? I am in no way a snobby bitch whatsoever…my roommates can back me up on that one. In fact, I think I’m a little too nice.

A true bitch would embrace the fact that she looks like a bitch. But a shy person would be offended and shocked. I admit, I used to be hurt when people would tell me I look like a shallow bitch. I was hurt and ashamed of my face. I don’t want a horrible stereotype written all over me. I want people to give me a chance and give me the benefit of the doubt, like I do with other people.

Is it possible that I’m one of the rare species left in the world that doesn’t judge people and write them out?

Nowadays, I do embrace my image. Not because I’m proud of looking like a bitch but because, for every single friend who has told me I have a “bitchy look,” the statement is immediately followed by,

“But surprisingly, you’re one of the nicest people I’ve ever met.”

And this tells me two things.

1) I may have an unfriendly appearance but once people meet me, their expectations are reversed. This means people have learned not to judge others who look a certain way. Just because a girl is wearing glasses and braces, doesn’t mean she’s a nerd. You have to look deeper and give people a chance. A lot of my friends feel they’ve learned valuable lessons after realizing this.

2) I am a genuinely nice person and if people can look past the image and take the moment to get to know me, then they are worth being friends with. Why would I waste my time on people who just take one look at me and assume? Maybe I’m glad I was blessed with this armed weapon since I don’t have to waste my time with such close-minded people.

I’ve known a few people who have said that if they followed their instincts and completely dismissed someone, they would’ve missed out on knowing a great person. You only know a few great people in your life and the more chances you take, the more great friends you make. It’s not guaranteed that you’ll find friends each time you take a shot.

But the more you shut people out, the less chances you have of finding truly amazing people that might impact your life.

xoxo Hunni

You know how you have that one person you can talk to, confide in, and rely on? Well I have a very special person in my life who means everything to me…as a boyfriend, a friend, and just as a soulmate.

I just wanted to take the time to say:

<3 HAPPY BIRTHDAY CARLO! <3

You’re my best friend in the whole wide world and I love you so much! I’ve matured and grown because of your love, your attentiveness, and your generosity.

Wish you the best birthday ever and hope every year beats the last!

P.S. with every year, you grow wiser. and with every year, you grow hotter.

xoxo Hunni

Hmm so people are asking me to update about my personal life since I rarely do. What can I say…?

— ABOUT MY WEB LIFE:

— How do you guys like my new layout? It was a new release on wordpress and I love 3-column layouts so I decided to try it out. It’s not perfect yet but I’m still fixing things and moving things around. I added topics and deleted some useless ones—trying to make this site as easy as possible to navigate around. 

— I’ve been busy looking for ways to spruce up my  website. I have a lot of friends who are going to help me put it all together. The layout, the cam, the tagboard, etc. I might even have a doggie cam since I’m always snapping pics of my dogs. I <3 them.

— I am starting to get into the whole social networking thing. I tried myspace and facebook and was obsessed with it for quite a while. But I gave that all up. Maybe I’ll make a new one for this website I’m working on getting a twitter up which I am sorta against but if I want to start networking, I guess I gotta start somewhere. I also want to hit up a bunch of forums!

— ABOUT MY SOCIAL LIFE:

— Yikes! I haven’t been out in about 5 months or so. And by out, I mean partying! I’ve become sort of a shop-a-holic mall clinger and really haven’t done much but shop. I went bowling last week and next week, I’m so excited for DISNEYLAND!! I haven’t been there since I was 15. Def. going to take some pics! I’ve recently reunited with a friend from middle school and we’ve been talking about moving in together since we both live in the same area. I’m kinda excited for that since we’re both really alike.

— Although I’m a little sad when I think of my roommates moving out. We’ve been through a lot of fun times together and it’s sad to grow up, separate, and go off in different directions. I mean, I know it was bound to happen sometime or another but geez, it’s kind of abrupt.

— ABOUT MY GARAGE SALE:

— I have TONS of clothes, shoes, purses, and accessories that are put aside for a future garage sale. A lot of them are in perfectly new condition. I want to sell everything, make a few dollars, and just put that towards my savings when I decide to invest in something. Not sure what I want to do business wise…would be nice to open a little shopping boutique. 

— Since I have tons of stuff that I’ve been selling, I want to try selling some stuff on Amazon or Ebay too and maybe even through this website. Might be selling stuff soon since I’m moving out. Fun stuff!

— MY NEW CONTACT INFO:

So I have an entirely new email just for this website:

TASTEOFHUNNI [@] GMAIL.COM

So use that email when you want to contact me for anything regarding this website. I’ve already gotten a few emails and I love responding to them so don’t ever hesitate!

I’ll put my twitter up once it’s finished.
Have a good night!

xoxo Hunni

Sorry I haven’t been on this thing in a long time. I promised myself I would blog more often and I totally will try to! Hmm…so what can I update you about? Well…I’ve been thinking about getting a new phone buuuut….

For the first time ever, I actually have a New Year’s resolution for this year and it’s:

Buying a cell phone ONLY if my current cell phone is damaged.

eek! Maybe I gave myself too much credit…who am I kidding? I’m not that strong!

The reason for this resolution is my excessive obsession with phones. I’ve already spent over $600 in 2 years on 3 cell phones. I know it’s unnecessary but I have a guilty pleasure. I love shopping for phones! And the internet doesn’t help one bit…I could spend hours just researching phones online.

My current phone is the Blackberry 8900 and I’m quite happy with it. It’s an amazingly reliable phone and I’ve never had so much fun texting all my girlfriends! The trackball is a dream and makes it easy to navigate everywhere. I’m surprised not all phones have the ball!

I definitely am considering getting a new blackberry or even a touch screen phone. Not sure about the iPhone since I am anti-iPhone!

[BEGIN RANT] Sorry for all you fans out there but I really have nothing against the phone. What I’m frustrated about is the CRAZED PERSON who can’t put the phone down for 2 seconds to talk! And if he or she does talk, it’s about the iPhone!!! Why would I care to hear about the iPhone? I don’t have it so I don’t know WTF you’re talking about?!!! I can’t tell you how many iPhone freaks I know! [END OF RANT]

Whew, sorry had to let that out. heehee
But seriously folks, this iPhone fad has even caused problems in relationships…one of my girlfriends can’t stand the sight of it anymore! I hope I never become obsessed with an object to the point where I ignore my own family, friends, & boyfriend! =/

Well I’m off to bed…oooh and I just bought the Bumble & Bumble Creme De Coco Shampoo & Conditioner & Masque! I’m really excited because I’ve heard so many girls rave about it! If it’s worthy, you know I’ll give you guys a review!

Oh and my Canon is all set up in my room, ready to snap pics! My brother is getting a host for me and I’ll have a very pretty layout up with updated cam pics! YAYYY!

xoxo Hunni